I wonder why God gave me this personality of one who feels things so very deeply !!! I realize it is a good thing to feel things and care for others etc etc!! Don't get me wrong , I am thankful for what GOd has given me and how He has created me (well not always : ) ), but this "feeling" thing can be a blessing and a curse!

I am traumatized to see animals without homes for one. We were feeding a cat near our workplace at one time and I asked my husband if we could take this cat in , and Ken said no more cats! (Its not that he doesn't like animals either) and I layed on the couch and cried as I felt so SAD for the animal! I even prayed that GOd would get him a good home and keep him or her alive! We kept feeding this sweet baby (and he ate up that food and water). Good news is that someone DID take that precious baby into their home and he is spoiled rotten now! I feel so much for animals because they do not have a voice and cannot speak for themselves!!

I also get very attached to people when I DO attach! I have always been a hard one to get to know, especially in highschool! I was so private a person and very insecure and saw everyone better than myself! Not a pity party here, just saying : )

I am deeply saddened about my pastor moving on!! I was under him for 13 years I believe and I am wanting to do a special "Love you Much" party for him....will try and get that together! I love him dearly, like a father!

I remember when my spin instructor on Sat. mornings announced he no longer was going to teach our class, I cried the whole way home cause I loved that guy!

It can be a curse in the worst of ways like when I was in highschool and attempted suicide because of an insensitive commment a girl said about me in math class (10th grade, my worst year of all) Funny thing is that me and this girl became friends and are friends to this day! And to think I almost ended my life because of what someone thought of me and How deeply I hurt ,,....I told noone this and just kept the pain inside.

I have grown since then, but STILL feel things very deeply and I know that it is a blessing too, because of the love God gave me for children!! I have taught kids for years and loved them with ALL my heart!!!

I took a break from teaching due to this depression.......but plan on going back!! In GOd's timing : )

The other POSITIVE thing of feeling deeply is that when I am enjoying a moment with my friends , i enjoy it thoroughly and LOVE to laugh heartily and enjoy every moment with them! I have missed some of that lately due to this depression, but I am coming out of it!!

The "gift" of Feeling life deeply is a "curse" , but mostly a blessing....we MUST choose this gift to be a blessing for others!!!!