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Trusting God is something I thought I understood, until.... depression smacked me down on my face.  I then realized I never really understood what it means to trust God or anyone for that matter.  I was surrounded by many friends, church activities , and hobbies and yet I was a wounded , hurting,  lonely person and didn't even realize it!  I was also too busy to realize that I never trusted God with my life, except for salvation.

Suffering from depression is  very painful indeed!  I personally know this all too well, as I am suffering from this frightening condition (for lack of a better word)!

Depression can make one feel very alone, lost, without hope, and completely isolated from the rest of the world. 

I , in this particular article, would encourage anyone out there suffering from depression to reach out, as difficult as it may be , even to one person. I tend to isolate, but have pushed myself out there so I may not go at this all alone. We are not meant to go through life alone, and this is especially true with depression.

I have self-medicated with shopping, movies, self-injury(yes, even that), reading books......all done in isolation from others. This all works quite well...... temporarily!

I am realizing that to get through depression is to go through it and NOT alone.  I am on this journey with God, an excellent Christian counselor (highly recommended, a counselor),and it is in this setting I am learning to trust a person and then a God I cannot see for the first time (really trust).  Having said that, the process is a painful one and I still tend to isolate and self-medicate.Yes, I fall....a lot...but I get back up,wipe myself off and keep going forward one baby step at a time towards true healing.  I am not going through it alone, and that is of utmost importance. 

 Cry out to God and just take one baby step toward healing and reach out to someone (I recommend  a trained, professional counselor with whom you connect)  Let that be your first step...

I find when I take even the tiniest of steps towards trusting another with my hurts, past woundedness, and many fears that God carries me a little futher than I thought I could go. It is worth it, and I am saying this in the midst of a dark journey and the light is very dim, but I press forward until that light gets brighter and brighter.  I can't see it yet, but it is coming.  I can say this because I am not walking through these dark nights alone, but with God and a real-live human who cares to walk it with me.

Trust, don't isolate, it is worth the risk! Trust someone with your heart ...they won't do things perfectly, but that is part of trust, andit leads to a trust in God, your Creator who loves perfectly and does all things with perfection.